*sigh*

[deep_red_bells]

They mock me.

Comments

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

I'm being supportive! You're pregnant and it's a cute belly.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

I'm all...puffy.

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

There's no way to convince you otherwise, hmm?

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Not really, no.

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

You're a pretty pregnant woman though and it won't take long for you to get back to your pre-baby weight after she's born.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

I don't think my feet will ever be the same. What if I can't wear my shoes ever again?

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

Sure, you will. In no time, you'll be rocking the cute high heels all over again.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I'm just having a day.

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

It's okay. Can I do anything?

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I'm...being all negative. Scared that something'll happen and something'll go wrong, and...you know we have to start classes soon, you know, childbirth classes? And I realized I can't even hold my husband's hand while I'm in labor. There's now way I can keep my strength under control. I'd just end up breaking his hand.

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

If you break his hand, we'll just take care of it. Sure, it's going to suck for him till we do but you're going to need someone's hand to hold onto. It's going to be okay, Bee. Everything has been fine so far and you've got all of us to look after you guys. Your husband and all your friends.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

I guess I'm just...scared.

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

About the labour or about the baby coming afterwards? Or both?

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Both. And everything before and between and after and...just, scared.

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

I think it's normal to be scared, right?

You got this, Bee. I think you're going to be an awesome mom.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's what everyone keeps saying.

I hope so.

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

I know I would be terrified.

I think so. You've been awesome with me and I'm sure Molly would say the same.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but...you guys aren't tiny helpless breakable things.

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

Really? Have you met me?

*yes, she's trying to make you smile...even a little?*

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

You know what I mean.

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

I know, was just trying to make you smile or something.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Sorry. I smiled a little?

[its-notluck.livejournal.com]

Nah, you didn't but it's okay.