Jun. 4th, 2008
1) Every time my mother and my grandmother would argue. I'd go to my room and hide in the closet and wish so badly I had a fairy godmother to make everything better.
2) Every birthday and Christmas that went by that my dad never called or sent a card, or my mom "couldn't make it this year."
3) When Casey threw up on my dress at senior prom. Bright red punch. All over my white dress that I worked my ass off to help pay for. Oh my God, I hated her so much. I still don't think I've forgiven her.
4) When Daniel broke up with me, but not before telling me all the reasons we'd never work out, all of which were my faults and flaws, of course. Self-esteem? What self-esteem?
5) During all those weeks of chemo and radiation. It was awful. Cancer is just...it's a horrible disease. It's a miserable way to spend your last few months of life.
6) At my grandmother's wake. You can only hear so many people say "I'm so sorry for your loss" before you want to crawl under the bed and just hide.
7) When Spike told me what I was. So badly wanted to be someone else. Anyone else. Anyone at all.
8) After I staked my first vamp.
9) When I dislocated my shoulder and couldn't do anything but lay in bed and cry for what felt like a whole damned day. It hurt so bad and I was such a baby about it and I cannot begin to tell you how much I wished I was someone else. Or that I had painkillers. Really, really strong painkillers.
10) When I met my brother. It's okay now. That moment, however, was not fun.
11) When Terry said she was putting me in charge of the girls.
12) When Nahuel tried to put me in thrall. It was scary, it was awful and I swear to God, I'm killing him for it.
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13) When Cain told me he loved me. I seriously considered leaving. I so badly wanted to be elsewhere.
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2) Every birthday and Christmas that went by that my dad never called or sent a card, or my mom "couldn't make it this year."
3) When Casey threw up on my dress at senior prom. Bright red punch. All over my white dress that I worked my ass off to help pay for. Oh my God, I hated her so much. I still don't think I've forgiven her.
4) When Daniel broke up with me, but not before telling me all the reasons we'd never work out, all of which were my faults and flaws, of course. Self-esteem? What self-esteem?
5) During all those weeks of chemo and radiation. It was awful. Cancer is just...it's a horrible disease. It's a miserable way to spend your last few months of life.
6) At my grandmother's wake. You can only hear so many people say "I'm so sorry for your loss" before you want to crawl under the bed and just hide.
7) When Spike told me what I was. So badly wanted to be someone else. Anyone else. Anyone at all.
8) After I staked my first vamp.
9) When I dislocated my shoulder and couldn't do anything but lay in bed and cry for what felt like a whole damned day. It hurt so bad and I was such a baby about it and I cannot begin to tell you how much I wished I was someone else. Or that I had painkillers. Really, really strong painkillers.
10) When I met my brother. It's okay now. That moment, however, was not fun.
11) When Terry said she was putting me in charge of the girls.
12) When Nahuel tried to put me in thrall. It was scary, it was awful and I swear to God, I'm killing him for it.
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13) When Cain told me he loved me. I seriously considered leaving. I so badly wanted to be elsewhere.
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