But there is something...not like that, but you get my point. It stings sometimes, but I think you 'n me ended up right where we belong. You 'n him are meant for each other, and so help me, if I got a say in it? I won't let you ditch him. Not the way he makes you light up.
I know that's what it is...I just wish it didn't hurt so goddamn bad. I know you'll wanna smack me for it, but it really makes me wonder if I should just stop trying to be happy. Maybe God's testing me, maybe if I pass he'll drop someone in my lap, or something...or maybe I'll die a fucking hermit. But every time I reach up, I get set square on my ass and I'm just...raw and tired.
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Date: 2009-01-14 11:12 pm (UTC)I know that's what it is...I just wish it didn't hurt so goddamn bad. I know you'll wanna smack me for it, but it really makes me wonder if I should just stop trying to be happy. Maybe God's testing me, maybe if I pass he'll drop someone in my lap, or something...or maybe I'll die a fucking hermit. But every time I reach up, I get set square on my ass and I'm just...raw and tired.