I don't think you are. It's not like you got to choose in the first place. It was hoisted on you as a preteen or teenager and you were just told to deal. You have admirably really. If you feel like you're done, who are they to tell you that you aren't?
Ideally, we'd stay. I already have a house. We both have good jobs and I finally just made detective. In a year or two I'd be principle on a case and when I proved myself there I'd be a senior detective. My choice of cases. Assuming of course that I don't get pregnant right away and have to take a little time off. But I'm used to being alone. Andy's not. He's been in our country less than a year and this is the longest he's ever been from his gigantic family. They've always been there for him and he wants that for our kids. How can I say no to that? The two things I want most in the world and I have to pick. I love my job. I love feeling like I make a difference. That I help people. In some respects I feel like I was born to do it. My dad spent my whole life training me but I love Andy more. I want to be his wife. I want to have his kids. I want to be adopted by his crazy British family. I want him to be able to take this incredible writing job for a newspaper there. I want to make him happy in every possible way a person can make another person happy probably because I still can't believe he picked me. And if being a security guard isn't enough then I don't know. I guess I'll have to try and figure something else out because if I can't be happy with everything he wants to give me then I really don't deserve him.
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Date: 2009-02-08 06:27 am (UTC)Ideally, we'd stay. I already have a house. We both have good jobs and I finally just made detective. In a year or two I'd be principle on a case and when I proved myself there I'd be a senior detective. My choice of cases. Assuming of course that I don't get pregnant right away and have to take a little time off. But I'm used to being alone. Andy's not. He's been in our country less than a year and this is the longest he's ever been from his gigantic family. They've always been there for him and he wants that for our kids. How can I say no to that? The two things I want most in the world and I have to pick. I love my job. I love feeling like I make a difference. That I help people. In some respects I feel like I was born to do it. My dad spent my whole life training me but I love Andy more. I want to be his wife. I want to have his kids. I want to be adopted by his crazy British family. I want him to be able to take this incredible writing job for a newspaper there. I want to make him happy in every possible way a person can make another person happy probably because I still can't believe he picked me. And if being a security guard isn't enough then I don't know. I guess I'll have to try and figure something else out because if I can't be happy with everything he wants to give me then I really don't deserve him.