Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?

[deep_red_bells]

This song needs to be removed from my playlist. IMMEDIATELY.

What the fuck is wrong with me?!! I'm up, I'm down, I'm happy, I'm sobbing, MOODS, MAKE UP YOUR FUCKING MINDS.

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[mabofwinterdark.livejournal.com]

Talk about a killer.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Thinking about wedding stuff just got me thinking about my grandmother. How she'd be freaking out that Julian isn't Catholic and yet she'd still be happy. I keep looking at dresses and thinking about things that I want and what her reaction to it would be. Her face keeps popping into my mind.

This is supposed to be mother-daughter stuff, I guess, and she was my mother in every way that counted, and I don't get to have her do all this with me, and it sucks.

[mabofwinterdark.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey, I'm so sorry. It seems we aren't allowed anything sweet without so some sour.

And just because something was meant one way when it was made, doesn't mean it can't become something more.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

You're right, I know you're right. I'm lucky I have friends and some family left to share it all with.

[mabofwinterdark.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You deserve more, but it is good that you have more.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

*hugs back and smiles* I feel better. Thanks, Mab. You really are totally like my fairy godmother or something.

[mabofwinterdark.livejournal.com]

Hey, not the first time someone said that. *smiles* I think I'm currently fairy god mother for about, oh, thirty or forty at the moment.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

That's okay! I learned to share.

[mabofwinterdark.livejournal.com]

*chuckles* I believe that.

[rattle-thecages.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, Bee.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Rach. I'm okay, really.

[rattle-thecages.livejournal.com]

I know you are.

I can sendeth you a cupcake?

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks hon, you're sweet.