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[deep_red_bells]

I would like to state, for the record, that that whole practice of making a woman drink a TON of water and then not letting her pee and then PRESSING DOWN ON HER ABDOMEN with that wand thing is a form of torture. TORTURE.

And also totally worth it.

LOOK. AT. THAT.

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[fever-crusade.livejournal.com]

Ohhh, I remember the feeling too well. There's nothing like it. When it starts to feel like something that's real and not just something that's basically vomit every five seconds and crave pickles and ice cream. Absolutely incredible.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Oh gosh, yes. It's lie there's this big door inside you that just blows up and pours out, just pure love and joy and awe. Like the fear doesn't even creep back in until later.

[fever-crusade.livejournal.com]

And, boy, does it take you by surprise.

...what are you afraid of?

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Completely by surprise.

Oh, God, everything. Of not being a good mom, of losing it, of something being wrong with it, of not being careful enough and hurting it somehow...just, everything.

[fever-crusade.livejournal.com]

Well, first of all, there's no doubt in my mind that you'll be a great mom. Second, you'd be surprised at how difficult it is to hurt the baby. They are surprisingly resilient, even at this stage.

Third...I understand the fear of losing it. Believe me. It took me twenty-five years to carry a child to term. It's terrifying. But you can make yourself sick worrying about it. My advice is, try as hard as you can not to.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

I know I shouldn't fret, but it's so hard not to. It just hits every once and a while. Like my side will hurt. I'll know it's nothing, it's just the muscles and tendons stretching, but still I'll just sit there and fight not to cry and just beg whoever's up there listening not to take it away.

[fever-crusade.livejournal.com]

I know, honey. I know how scary it is. But believe me when I say, it really does help to just hope for the best. Hope is really, when you get right down to it, all we can do in these situations. It's corny and intangible (and therefore slightly annoying), but that's all there is. And optimism is good for both you and the baby.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

I know. I'm trying really hard to stay positive and be happy and not obsess.

[fever-crusade.livejournal.com]

Good girl. And it'll all work out, I know it.